I'm going....

...to see the trainer. Yes. My team finally convince me to go after tomorrows game and I promised I would if my foot started to hurt at all. Is it a bad thing that I'm scared of almost nothing, yet having to see someone about my ankle which hurts me (only sometimes) scares me half to death. I don't even know why. I've rationalized it in my head that I just don't want to have to sit out, but is that really it? I know my team can win without me. There has to be another reason. I've thought maybe it's because I want to seem tough like I can survive the pain. But some how that doesn't seem right either. There is just something, maybe a combination of a bunch of things, that makes me avoid doing it at all costs.

I promised I would go though if it hurt, so I guess I'll either have to be super careful tomorrow, or face it up and see what I can do for this ankle. If they say I can't play though then I just might have to kill someone, esp because I have two club games this weekend, and they can't stop me from playing in those, but my parents can. ugh. I just wish it would feel better.