Weekend and observance

She sits with the group, just like she belongs. Perfectly normal. But upon closer examination, even from afar you can tell she isn’t really.

It may be hard to tell at first if she isn’t part of the group because of her choice, or not, but the eyes give it away. They stay steady straight ahead, following the people that walk by. They wander over to the group across the hallway, and a slight smile spreads across her face as a joke is made. Made in that other group. The little signs give it away that she wishes she was there, across the hall.

Her friends talk on, assuming she is the quiet one like always. What they don’t realize is that she isn’t really quiet, she just likes to listen, but give her the chance to talk, especially about something she enjoys and she could go on for hours.

She rejoins the conversation for a bit, but again her gaze drifts away. This time not following people, but lost with in her self. Clearly pondering deeper thoughts then are currently being discussed in the circle. A smile shows on her face as someone makes a joke in the group, but it isn’t a true smile, nor as big as the other members.


I don’t know why I wrote this. I don’t really feel this way. Sure maybe somedays, but not usually. Not today I don’t think. Just something to ponder. It’s amazing how much you can learn about someone from there body language.

This past weekend was fun. LOCK-IN! I pulled off not sleeping for 24 hours. And I must say that talent show was so-proooo!! Made it especially good after we spent a good three hours getting everything to work and it turned out great! ;P

Managed to injury myself again ☺ Don’t even know how this time. I just couldn’t bend my right wrist down all weekend though and it was a little sore. Much better today, I’ve been stretching it, but the trainers don’t have a clue, so they just wrapped it for me for practice Monday.

Hopefully the rest of the week will be good ☺

I'm going....

...to see the trainer. Yes. My team finally convince me to go after tomorrows game and I promised I would if my foot started to hurt at all. Is it a bad thing that I'm scared of almost nothing, yet having to see someone about my ankle which hurts me (only sometimes) scares me half to death. I don't even know why. I've rationalized it in my head that I just don't want to have to sit out, but is that really it? I know my team can win without me. There has to be another reason. I've thought maybe it's because I want to seem tough like I can survive the pain. But some how that doesn't seem right either. There is just something, maybe a combination of a bunch of things, that makes me avoid doing it at all costs.

I promised I would go though if it hurt, so I guess I'll either have to be super careful tomorrow, or face it up and see what I can do for this ankle. If they say I can't play though then I just might have to kill someone, esp because I have two club games this weekend, and they can't stop me from playing in those, but my parents can. ugh. I just wish it would feel better.

Story time

So... Once upon a time, well actually today, but anyways...I was in bio class and I had dressed up for a presentation. This involved wearing flats which hurt my ankle, but it also involved wearing a skirt. A very fun skirt that made me want to dance. I also had an amazing dancing song stuck in my head, Footloose. So I had my own mini dance party in bio, even leaving my skirt of after class so that I could have my own little dance party to cheer me up when ever I wanted during tech. It made me happy. Then end :)

Silly Ankle

So yes. My ankle is swollen and sore again. But yet again I refuse to go to the trainers. It's been sore/swollen on and off for almost 2 weeks now. Just not sore enough to go be told I can't play for 3 weeks by the trainers. It only hurts when I punt or kick the soccer ball badly and don't lock my ankle. It just doesn't seem worth it to me. Although I have also considered the fact that I'm just being stupid.

But until I get a better reason to see the trainer or we don't have a game with in a few days, I think ice will solve my problem just fine :)

Great Weekend, Until now.

What a wonderful weekend. I got to ride. I got to drive. I got work the show. I got to go to cast party. Lolli was a wonderful relief from the long week. Driving was so much fun. The highlight of my day was definitely Drama though.

Circle. What an amazing thing. The peace of it. Holding hands with a lot of people you love. Listening to a nice closing to the show. Listening to the seniors talk of there experience. Just soaking it in. Feeling like you belong. I wish it was a weekly thing. I'm gonna miss a lot of our seniors though. I don't what booth is gonna be like next year without Anna and her positiveness and Andrea with her harsh exterior, but still so sweet. Then there are the actors. Nicole, who is just amazing, and Kevin, who is a great actor and funny guy. Caralyn, and Cara, and Seth, and everyone else.

The weirdest thing is thinking about what my senior circle is like. It feels like it should be all the people who were there, but really hardly anyone who was there today will be there then. Most of them will be the 6th, 7th and 8th graders currently. And senior superlatives, we don't know who will be writing those either.

Cast party was amazing, although I didn't stay for the whole time. I have to thank Anna, for giving me a ride and for convincing my parents to let me go by just standing there and looking responsible. The funny thing is that when I'm at a party people always say I look like I'm not having fun, but really I'm having the time of my life.

I guess it was a lot of firsts yesterday. First time driving. First Cappies show. First Cast party. First time going through a drunk driver checkpoint. First... I guess it all happens Once In A Lifetime.